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| i believe in love and i believe in hate but i also believe that there is no reason for hate. it is such a strong word that has caused a lot of pain and chaos. my first love experience has come these days and i enjoy every moment that i get to have the feeling of love but as for hate there is one person who is experiencing this and i believe that it is not deserved. there is no reason for this hate. i still believe that the world will become a peaceful place. now don't get me wrong. there is a time and place for strong dislikes, but for a world full of hate i don't ever want to live there and i know a few people who do live in that type of world. it sucks. so to them i wish a world full of joy and peace and love. for my pirate girl i say screw the person who thinks that they can make a world full of hate. for doctor phil don't worry to much because girls will be girls and just because this specific one is making you a little worried doesn't mean that your future is still bright with her.
peace and love, danie (the one and only) | | |
| yeah so i haven't updated this thing in a long time. i mean a lot has happened in the last two months. i got accepted as an alternate into the lpn program which i believe to be good once the classes start but with the things to do to get started and prepared........they suck! this program is already making me go bankrupt with what little money i have. so many things to buy, tests to have done. crazy is the only word for it. but i know i'll have fun. but i'm sure everyone i hang out with updates a lot more then i do and if you know them then you probably know what is pretty much going on in my life. i don't do much as far as going out, i just kinda chill and i don't mind being that way. there are times that i know i have complained that i wish i would have gone to more parties and did more things but the truth is that i think, and i hate to say it, that i'm becoming more of an adult. my childhood is gone, i'm no longer a teen, and the twenty-somethings just want to go to bars and drink. i don't know i suppose that these days the only things that have been on my mind involve my life and the future of where it's headed, job wise, relationship wise, living situation wise. i mean i can't live at home forever and these days i rarely see my own bedroom considering i stay at brent's so often. his house is like a second home and sometimes i believe that it is more like a first home. my mom is starting to understand the way i feel too. she understands why i like being at brent's more then at home and it's not her. i'm just more stress free there. i don't have to worry about as many things. like chores, at home it was a daunting task that had to be done everyday on time, but at brent's i don't mind helping out and i take my laundry to the laudrymat to wash it and i try to help out with groceries as much as possible. i mean i'm not his mom's daughter and i don't want her to get the feeling that i'm a burden so i don't mind helping. my mom understands. relationship wise things are wonderful. brent looks at me like i'm his world and i can tell you now that i see him in mine for a long time. i've never really felt this way before and only one person knows how i truely feel for him. the "l" word hasn't come up yet but to tell you the truth, it doesn't scare me anymore. love is such a stronge word to use and i have never used it in a romantic sense of the word. i don't toss it around when i say it because this one little word can either really make someones day or even life, or it could destroy them if you say you don't feel that way. it's a stressful word but it's one thing i know i will possibly be able to say to him. and that's the first that i have told anyone about it. you know i see all these young people getting engaged and married and having kids before they even turn twenty-one and it's like how can you do that? but part of me feels inside what i know all those people are feeling when they do these things, i'm with the person i love and want to be with forever. now i said a small part so don't go blowing this out of proportion. so onto much more shallow things. pirates of the carribean 2 comes out tonight with a midnight showing. i really wanna go. i might end up having to go tomorrow though cause it seems that my piggy bank has been emptyed and even cracked into little tiny pieces to make sure there is no cash left. i get payed tomorrow though so maybe then. i do believe however that if i will have to work every single minute i'm scheduled for, for the next two weeks so that i will have a big enough check to afford my lpn uniform. oh and i almost forgot, i'm going camping at the state park tomorrow. lots of fun anticipated. well that's all i can write for now. catch ya in reality.
peace and love, danie (the one and only) | | |
| yep sorry for the lateness in updating. i have been having probs with my computer. anyways so i suppose you all want to know what is going on in my life, well, lets see i have a new job at the college working in the mail room with ash, hope, and joe. i have another infraction at k-mart making it four now so two more and i'm through there. i don't think i'll have a cell phone much longer thanks to my sister, oh and my mom can't keep her mouth shut. yep that's about it. oh and i forgot my cell phone today so i have to figure out how i'm going to call home only to get brent's phone number to call him at home so that we can hang out. yep my lateness has some backing up for it cause i have been BUSY!!!!!!! ok well that's about all.
peace and love,
danie (the one and only) | | |
| i hope everyone had a great spring break and easter holiday. i had some bad news and it kinda killed the joy. one of my co-workers at k-mart passed away on sunday and it is hard. i haven't had the experience of losing someone close that i knew. and i hope you guys never have to deal with that either. yesterday was filled with work then finding out she passed and then some tears and then spending time with family and then lots of sleep from sheer exahustion. but as for the love part of this entry, me and brent are good. he is a great guy who treats me like i'm a princess. what more could a girl ask for in a boyfriend. oh so i might be going to warp tour this summer. should be fun. there's a lot of great bands playing. and it'll be fun to hang out with a different crowd for a while. doing the same thing over and over and over gets pretty boring. but my summer won't be boring because i'm signed up for the microbiology class and i'll be working my ass off. fyi to anybody i haven't told already, i got a letter from kcc and i didn't make it into the lpn program. it really sucks too cause instead of just the long 3 years i thought i still had left now i will have to add another year to that to enable me to get my rn. four more years at kcc. man it's gonna be long. i don't know though, it may not all be at kcc, who knows. i would love to move away and doing something away from this county but with limited resources it's kinda hard. you just gotta work with what you got and that's what i'm doing.
peace and love,
danie (the one and only) | | |
| i like posting my words on this online journal because i can leave messages for all my friends and if you choose to read the messages that's great because i never post anything i can't own up to. i don't like stress and it seems that i have a lot of it now even though i said i had the perfect fix to get rid of it. i left a post on someone's site and it made another person mad. this is not my fault because like i said, when i post something it is the truth and it is what i feel like writing. i warn people now that if you are going to say anything bad or hurtful about one of my friends i will go and tell them. this is my responsibility as a good friend. i think that if you have something on your mind that you want to tell a certain person than you should tell them yourself. please don't go through other people. i can't talk a whole lot about this subject because i am guilty of doing the same thing but i have fixed that problem or at least i believe that i have made i go away more than what i was. life is difficult and it doesn't need the harsh words and drama of feelings bottled up and then exploded. i have just used words to make it seem like everyone can have this problem and that is true but there if a certain person who has caused this post and she knows who she is. i hope that your friendship is not ruined and i know that i was no where near the cause of that friendship going down the drain. i wish you all the luck in trying to fix this problem but remember that it's a two-way street and both you and your friend must want to rekindle the dying friendship. good luck and to everyone else i hope your life and days are great without drama or stress.
peace and love,
danie (the one and only) | | |
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